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My mom is the auditor in the ‘Reckless Ben’ Scientology infiltration videos

[Irmin Huber, keeping her TRs in.]

In 2017, we told you the devastating disconnection story of Clarissa Adams, a woman who had grown up in Scientology and then was cut off by both of her parents when she decided to leave the church. She hasn’t seen or spoken to her mother, Irmin Huber, since 2014, when Irmin cited a Scientology policy at her while they were both visiting Austria, where the family is originally from. Clarissa sent this account of what it was like to see her mother featured so prominently in the Reckless Ben videos, shot by a couple of young men who wore spy glasses into the Los Angeles Ideal Org several weeks ago.

Of all the people at PAC [the Pacific Area Command, Scientology’s “Big Blue” headquarters in Los Angeles], it’s a little wild that this video series features my mom as Ben’s auditor. Seeing how intensely dedicated she remains is not surprising but makes me sad nonetheless.

It’s tough to watch her as an auditor knowing she fully, 100 percent believes she’s helping Ben. The idea that she was brainwashing him would appall her. Her entire goal in life is to help people. She loves everyone, unless you turn to the dark side of course, and she wants to help everyone she meets. Unfortunately for her (and all of us kids, really) she picked the wrong group to do that with.

When she was younger, my mom rebelled against the idea that because she was female, she wasn’t able to do what men could do. From what she told me, her mother and father were strict and she wasn’t allowed to do certain things, even cut her hair, because she was a girl. So as soon as she was of age, she rebelled.



The day she came of age (I can’t remember if it was 16, 18 or 20) she cut her crazy-long hair to above her shoulders and later bought a motorbike and joined a biker group full of men. Sometime later she found Scientology and learned that we are all Thetans, and that Thetans are non-gendered beings. So we are all just as able as the person next to us, male or female.

She was hooked. She made it up the Bridge to OT 3 (yes, she definitely knows about Xenu), joined staff at the Vienna org, met my dad there and had my brother and me. In 1985 she flew to Portland for the Portland Crusade to fight for Scientology’s rights, and then in 1986 we all flew from Austria to LA so mom and dad could join the Sea Organization.

My mom was pregnant with my little sister when we came over and she completed the EPF [Estates Project Force, the Sea Org’s boot camp] while pregnant. She figured that dedicating herself to being a Sea Org member was the best way to help save this planet. I’m pretty sure she’s never wavered in that dedication.

Side note: she was even the OT3 Supervisor at the FLO/ILO for many years so again, Xenu. I will say that in her defense, although she lied through her teeth to Ben, if she had told him the truth or encouraged him to look online and read about Xenu then he might actually have died because he’s not ready for that kind of truth yet. Scientologists believe that if she told him the truth then he would have caught life-threatening pneumonia. (Writing that last sentence, it’s astonishing to me that I fully believed it and gave myself no reason to question it for way too long. Brainwashing sucks.)


That “I love you” moment she had with Ben was a little strange, but I think she was being genuine at the time — though she may have needed to force it some after all that squirrely Purif talk. She really admires people who do amazing and daring things and finds them fascinating (she even went skydiving for the first time in her late 50s; she’s definitely into thrills). She thinks of Scientology books and pamphlets as gifts of golden knowledge so her gift was also genuine. I’m not sure that she still loves him though…

Early last year she stopped talking to her family in Austria who, for the past 35 years she always made a point to stay in touch with and even made time to visit despite her being in the Sea Org. To me that’s a bad sign because it means she is isolating herself even more than usual.

I think it’s inevitable that she’ll be in trouble for all of this and I just hope that it’s uncomfortable enough that she feels the need to leave. I do realize that this is total wishful thinking on my part.

Overall, my assessment is that she doesn’t look very happy. And while I miss my mom, I don’t miss her intense dedication to, and belief in Scientology because right now she’s in that fire truck and my sister and I are just some of those damn barking dogs that she’s intently ignoring.


— Clarissa Adams


Source Code

“Nineteen fifty-one, I rolled up my sleeves and started to investigate the Whole Track. Because in late 1950 it had started to raise its ugly and unseemly head. And auditors who would run into it and try to audit it and pcs who dare bring it up, of course, ran into a considerable social ostracism of one character or another. That was not done. The first Foundation board tried to pass a regulation, a board ruling to the effect that nobody would ever look at, believe in or investigate past lives, and so forth. And yet auditors in auditing them kept running into them, you see? So that probably was the basic split-up of the first Foundation. The first Foundation wanted to sit there comfortably and just grind on and on in present-life engrams and consider that we had it all made and they wanted no further research or investigation of any kind whatsoever. Well, that wouldn’t go and that was that, because auditors were not turning out the results they should have turned out if one had only lived one life. So in 1951 this — I didn’t fly in the teeth of this. I would have investigated anything. I mean, there’s no real resistance on my part. You show me something, tell me I can’t investigate it, I’m liable to investigate it. You show me something and tell me I can investigate it, I’m liable to investigate it. I mean, there is no influence in that line. I, just down through the trillennia, I have not paid attention to and/or paid no attention to people who have told me not to look. I just have not paid any attention to this one way or the other. This, of course, adds up to a total neglect of the ‘finer sensibilities,’ I think they’re called, of other people. The finer sensibilities, I think, is another way of expressing the idea ‘he’s too yellow to look.'” — L. Ron Hubbard, January 25, 1962


Overheard in the FreeZone

“If no one trains to be an auditor then Scientology will be dead in the future. There are two major ‘stops’ to training, time and money. There are people who might want to train who believe they can’t afford it. If someone would start a fund raising campaign and collect funds that could be given as grants for studying that might help. For example if there was a grant available for training, I could advertise for someone who would be willing to become and auditor if he/she had financial help. Just a thought.”


Random Howdy

“People say to me, ‘So, have you met a Scientologist?’ And I laugh and think to myself, ‘What a beautiful thing,’ because maybe one day it will be like that, you know? You know what I’m saying. Maybe one day it will be that ‘Wow, Scientologists, they just read about those in the history books.’ You know?”


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Scientology’s celebrities, ‘Ideal Orgs,’ and more!

[Erika Christensen, Ethan Suplee, and Juliette Lewis]

We’ve been building landing pages about David Miscavige’s favorite playthings, including celebrities and ‘Ideal Orgs,’ and we’re hoping you’ll join in and help us gather as much information as we can about them. Head on over and help us with links and photos and comments.

Scientology’s celebrities, from A to Z! Find your favorite Hubbardite celeb at this index page — or suggest someone to add to the list!

Scientology’s ‘Ideal Orgs,’ from one end of the planet to the other! Help us build up pages about each these worldwide locations!

Scientology’s sneaky front groups, spreading the good news about L. Ron Hubbard while pretending to benefit society!

Scientology Lit: Books reviewed or excerpted in our weekly series. How many have you read?



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[THREE years ago] Brandon Reisdorf: Scientology complained to probation dept. over ‘Leah Remini’ appearance
[FOUR years ago] For a class-action lawsuit against Scientology’s rehab network, a setback in California
[FIVE years ago] ‘Going Clear’ premieres at Sundance, and we watched in awe with the celebs
[SIX years ago] Jon Atack: Do Scientology’s training routines turn you into a sociopath?
[SEVEN years ago] Newsweek Confirms It: L. Ron Hubbard Was a Blowhard
[EIGHT years ago] The Strange Death of Flo Barnett, Mother-in-Law to Scientology Leader David Miscavige


Scientology disconnection, a reminder

Bernie Headley (1952-2019) did not see his daughter Stephanie in his final 5,667 days.
Valerie Haney has not seen her mother Lynne in 1,828 days.
Katrina Reyes has not seen her mother Yelena in 2,332 days
Sylvia Wagner DeWall has not seen her brother Randy in 1,852 days.
Brian Sheen has not seen his grandson Leo in 872 days.
Geoff Levin has not seen his son Collin and daughter Savannah in 763 days.
Christie Collbran has not seen her mother Liz King in 4,070 days.
Clarissa Adams has not seen her parents Walter and Irmin Huber in 1,938 days.
Carol Nyburg has not seen her daughter Nancy in 2,712 days.
Jamie Sorrentini Lugli has not seen her father Irving in 3,486 days.
Quailynn McDaniel has not seen her brother Sean in 2,832 days.
Dylan Gill has not seen his father Russell in 11,398 days.
Melissa Paris has not seen her father Jean-Francois in 7,317 days.
Valeska Paris has not seen her brother Raphael in 3,485 days.
Mirriam Francis has not seen her brother Ben in 3,066 days.
Claudio and Renata Lugli have not seen their son Flavio in 3,327 days.
Sara Goldberg has not seen her daughter Ashley in 2,365 days.
Lori Hodgson has not seen her son Jeremy and daughter Jessica in 2,078 days.
Marie Bilheimer has not seen her mother June in 1,603 days.
Charley Updegrove has not seen his son Toby in 1,130 days.
Joe Reaiche has not seen his daughter Alanna Masterson in 5,693 days
Derek Bloch has not seen his father Darren in 2,833 days.
Cindy Plahuta has not seen her daughter Kara in 3,153 days.
Roger Weller has not seen his daughter Alyssa in 8,009 days.
Claire Headley has not seen her mother Gen in 3,128 days.
Ramana Dienes-Browning has not seen her mother Jancis in 1,483 days.
Mike Rinder has not seen his son Benjamin and daughter Taryn in 5,786 days.
Brian Sheen has not seen his daughter Spring in 1,892 days.
Skip Young has not seen his daughters Megan and Alexis in 2,294 days.
Mary Kahn has not seen her son Sammy in 2,166 days.
Lois Reisdorf has not seen her son Craig in 1,749 days.
Phil and Willie Jones have not seen their son Mike and daughter Emily in 2,244 days.
Mary Jane Barry has not seen her daughter Samantha in 2,498 days.
Kate Bornstein has not seen her daughter Jessica in 13,607 days.


Posted by Tony Ortega on January 25, 2020 at 07:00

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