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Makes my head hurt now. Ouch.

What a goofy look!

Lol, those are funny. I have heard the stories. When they were trying to figure out what was wrong with me I was heavily doses one month…I was a total bitch. When my boss found out what was going on she was so relieved…she said it all made sense now and that I was off the hook. Lol…I knew I was a bit hormonal, but didn’t realize it was that bad.

You are welcome Kind man.

Drat.

Thank you, Baby. 🙂

Dodo.. Listen to your gut.. I am not social AT all.. My husband and I are so reclusive..

** I wrote this to Jennyfurrrr the other day..***

I am so reclusive it’s not funny.. and so is my husband. A nice couple invited us out to dinner.. Now we are not one to double date..hang out with other couples..blah..blah..

We have been together for 12 years and have never been to a party or another couple’s house. It was so weird.. The guy knows my hubby through fishing. His wife retired judge..both from NY.

The retired judge e mailed me and asked.. OK so I asked my husband.. We both hesitated.. and went back and forth.. So he said..

OK let’s go.. then we’ll take take them out and we’ll be even..and that’s it.. That’s the way we started out.. hahaha..

The Dinner was outstanding.. another couple were there.. the house was beyond anything I’ve ever seen..Waterfront with pool. Fabulous Art and Collectibles..

I couldn’t wait to go home get in my boxers and my husband kept shooting me looks like.. ” Ya ready to go home? ” and ” Uh yeah” back.

Too Much Talk about Politics and Religion.. Polite conversation.. and I had to pretend that I was an adult. I felt so fake…latest vacation..latest book read.

I have spent years trying to be my Authentic self.. and here I am .. nodding my head to things I didn’t agree with.. because I just wanted to scream..

” WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT..?” Hubby was so proud of me for showing restraint.

First I want to make it clear..It was very nice for them to invite us. They were fabulous hosts. The home was beautiful and food delicious.

All the way home we talked..

Hubby.. ” Lets never do that again..” hahahhahaa ” Who were you tonight? Interesting woman.. not my wife.. ”

Me.. ” I can NOT wait to get home.. What is wrong with us? ”

Him..” That was the longest 5 hrs. of my life. ”

We got home to 4 dogs barking..house was a mess.. turned on TV.. Me shooting for my office..Him eating a bowl of cereal..

And all was right with OUR little world. Yep.. Both of us Reclusive…and apparently ” Don’t play well with others.”

Do NOT let anyone guilt you into doing anything honey. My Ex loved parties..having people over.. I hated every minute of it.. I knew that I was not like ” Normal people..” and I finally embrace it.. I accept it.

I do NOT feel comfortable around others. I was so thrilled to have a life connection with Bury and Dee. I do not do small talk.. I end up talking TOO much.. or NOT at all..

Went to a fabulous party at Hole’s at Flag Down and I had a mini panic attack and told Bury I was going to put my feet in the up ground pool ( climbing little ladder) and NOT to talk to me..I had to decompress.

I was by myself for about 1 1/2 hrs.

I want to tell you.. Enjoying your own company and your own space is a skill that most don’t achieve. I know you adore your son and wife..That is so obvious.

If you do NOT go does not mean that you don’t care about the Bunkeroos. We all make choices. It will be expensive .. and some just don’t have it in their budget. A 5 hr. drive is a bitch.. Ugh..

One thing you HAVE to do.. If you go..fabulous.. If you do NOT go.. Don’t feel guilty.. Guilt isn’t in my vocabulary..It just isn’t.. It was at one time, but I just can’t afford to feel guilty..It is a terrible feeling.

So weigh the pros and cons..we all have to. You do know it’s damned if you do damned if you don’t..

If you stay home you wished you would have gone..If you go you will wish you stayed home..

So listen to your gut. I am not going because of my granddaughter..but I also planned on being in a hotel room by myself for a lot of the trip.

” To Thine Own Self be True.” Reach way down in side of you and decide. You have friends who will support you either way.. So shit.. What is your authentic self telling you to do.. Listen to it. love baby

Dodo – please do not cancel. I know from your comments you are sweet and kind. That’s all anyone wants at HowdyCon. Good human beans is good enough!