Welcome back, sciloonfairy! 🙂

Happy! Happy! Joy! Joy!

Hi Cars… yes, I totally understand. That is why I just rest back and let my Avatar speak here. Neither of us need stalking or harassment. We DO need clarity and a place to communicate so that we can sort and sift through our own experiences and grow strong.

Thank you for your comment. You’re right… I think that someday I’ll just live myself into a full “ah-hah” about all this. I feel truly grateful that I had a lot of meditation experience and love before I got to Co$. All through this bizarre journey, that is the one thing that kept present…. that Love is fundamental and is God and Life is inexhaustible. And that all of Existence is celebrating… and if we’re not celebrating along with Existence, then we’re missing the party.

So all those sad, pressured people scurrying around punishing people inside the Co$ are all missing their lives.

Thanks for your kindness. I’m sure we’ll meet someday. 🙂

Sorry Zana that I haven’t replied sooner. I’ve had computer, internet problems for 2+ weeks (plus personal and health problems) so I didn’t know if you even got my reply. Glad you did and glad I “got it.” I was worried about you and I was worried my reply was not appropriate. So thank you for reassuring me.

You are doing great – in my unprofessional opinion. I base this on the development in and of your comments in the Bunker. Based on your comments alone, if I were you I wouldn’t worry about get the full “ah-ha” just yet because you sure have made great and HUGE strides in sifting through wheat and chaff of the $ci mind f**k (and that doesn’t stand for ‘firetruck!’)

I personally think you are doing terrific work on and with yourself. Congratulations and keep at it!

Affectionately,

Cars

P.S. My username is based on a personal joke about my real name. I wouldn’t mind sharing it with you (offline) but if I explain the convoluted humor,based on my real life experience,behind my username – I’d have to reveal my real name and identity (which is really no biggie as I’m not anyone someone would recognize but because of stalking experience, I have to be very careful of identifying myself online. I am sure you understand! 🙂

Oh my dear . . . . I just spent a half hour scurrying to find you. I hate disqus.
I made a bunker mail, and I’d really appreciate if you used it. 🙂

I need to thank you proper, girl. Not just buried in comments. Feel me? :)))

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TA-DA!

Hey there, Portland. I asked after your whereabouts tonight. Just dropping a note to let you know that your absence has been noted.

Hi!!! Been way too busy at work — all I can do to check in once a day and get through the comments. But I always so and also do my best to at least lurk!

Here’s another piece of news:

11/4/13: My full length show about my entrance and exit in Scientology, 23 years worth of Membership, will be performed on Monday, November 25th at the Federal Bar in Noho. I have never tackled such a daring thing and while incredibly terrifying, in the end I know it will be rewarding for it will give voice to so many who are still so afraid to speak. May the conversation begin – and I truly hope you will be entertained!

Yeah I know. An Australian friend waited until all hours and still got scooped – and she had a plane ticket ready, too! Massive disappointment.